It's not that I've never lived alone. I've had some respites between roommates. I've had roommates go away for extended vacations. I've housesat for long periods and in college, I had a roommate who was so seldom home I felt like I lived by myself.
But in truth, I've never had my own place. And I've been struggling with that for some time now.
I've always worried, though, that if I lived alone, I'd feel lonely. Eventually I learned that even in a crowd a person can feel lonely, but you know what I mean. What would I do without the comforting eventuality that someone would be around to talk to?
But again, I've been struggling. So I'm finally considering a move. To a one bedroom apartment I can start fresh in and truly make my own. And I find I am BEYOND excited about it.
I've started to make a list of things I can do now; free of the fear that someone could walk in the front door at any moment.
- Watch my TV LOUD. In the living room, in my bedroom. LOUD.
- No pants. No pants are the best pants.
- Get out of the shower, wrap a towel around myself. Leave the bathroom even if the towel isn't totally covering my body.
- Clean. Like really clean. Keep it clean.
- Use my fridge. All of it. Throw something away when it's old or smells funny without asking someone else if it's okay to do so.
- Leave my bedroom door open when I'm not home.
- Put the new roll of toilet paper on the way I like it. This is a big deal.
In related news, I've gotten rid of or donated more than six bags of stuff. With more to go. I'm loving it. I've found a new way to shed weight and feel happy. Throwing away crap is super liberating.
Of course, it also means I don't have to move it, which is key. I hear packing for a move blows and I am not looking forward to it!
What did I forget? What can you do alone that you can't do when you live with a roommate?