"Fat" is always a controversial topic. I'm not an idiot - I named this blog. I knew what I was doing. But at the same time, when I named it, I was actually admitting that I was fat - out loud - for the very first time.
I want to be clear - while I do not say that I am fat with pride, I certainly do not say it in shame. All I can say in earnest is that I am just proud to be who I am -- whomever that is. ;)
The article, from Business Insider, tells us about 24 year old Caitlin, who woke up to internet fame one day when some ass clowns took a photo of her as Lara Croft Tomb Raider one Halloween and renamed it "Fridge Raider."
I shouldn't even have to tell you how upsetting that is.
There's much more. The article goes onto analyzing the internet trend of fat shaming, how it's the last bastion of acceptable "racism" an so forth (I don't necessarily agree but I'm willing to concede for now), studies, analytics, etc. You see, fat people usually know they're fat so it's okay to make fun of them. And there are health risks associated with being fat so if that's what it takes...
My point is that I agree with this article. The other point I wish to make is what fat is. Because while I'm concerned for people like me, people a little smaller than I am and people bigger than I am, I am also concerned for 13 year old me.
13 year old me was 5'6" and not heavy at all. 13 year old me wore shorts and enjoyed playing basketball in P.E. And one day, 13 year old me was getting up from a bench in the school cafeteria when a jock caught a view of her backside and loudly, so his buddies could all enjoy it, made beeping noises like when a mack truck goes into reverse, so everyone knew I was in motion. As I walked away, trying not to burst into tears, people high-fived him. He was rewarded for his behavior with praise and laughter. It was approved.
Years later when a guy flat out rejected me, telling me out loud it was because I was too fat, and not til the fourth date mind you, I can't say the hurt was any different than when I was a thinner, 13 year old version of myself.
My point is that even a non-fat person can be made to feel fat. And I think that makes fat shaming an even broader issue. It begs the question of what we're teaching as a society -- what is "fat?"
You guys, I just googled the term "fat women" and two of the top search results were articles summed up why fat women do not deserve to be loved. Do you understand the gravitas of that? Not just the content, but that they come up at the top of my search? That's internet supply and demand, kids. That means people are clicking on that shit enough to give it merit. You'll notice I'm not linking to it here. Screw them. Even as I write this blog post, I am astounded at the suggested "relevant links" provided by my blog post. These articles are disgusting.
Caitlin did what I did. She started a blog. Dedicated to the idea that everyone should feel delicious and that we should all be proud of who we are. I want to welcome her to the blogging community and let her know she is beautiful. And that no matter what the people who shamed her are - fat or thin - what they are is ugly. Inside and out. And who needs that in their life in any size?