I'm stealing Rory's Facebook status:
"Dear 2009 I
didn't mean to do this on Facebook but I think it is time
to see other people... Sure we had fun, some laughs along the way,
but I think it is time for us to move on.
I mean, change is hard but it's not you--it's me."
Granted, 2009 was not my worst year ever (2005? I'm looking at you!) but it ranks right up there. This was a tough year and I gotta tell ya - I'm walking away from it with a smile on my face. Partially because I'm still drunk off the emotion of a fabulous night last night and partially because I am optimistic for a better year in 2010.
I know a lot of people don't like to get caught up in new year's. I hear people say "it's just another night" and sometimes, I've been one of those people. But these last couple years, I've taken to looking at it differently. It's come to represent a fresh start; a new beginning. Somehow it's like you've been forgiven for a short series of transgressions and you get to start clean. Does that make sense? It's a big, convoluted metaphor, I suppose. But it works for me!
I looked back through my blog, wanting to check up on any resolutions I'd made for this year but I guess I only made them in my mind - I couldn't find an entry. That's probably due to an old mindset of mine in which I like to whine "I resolve not to make any resolutions" but I could have sworn... But anyway...
I'm sure there was resolve to do something about my health. And I gotta pat myself on the back for that one -- it took almost the whole year to get my ass in gear but almost 30 pounds shed and more-to-come makes me feel a sense of accomplishment I've not known in a long time.
It's likely I made some resolution about relationships. Maybe even to have one. Well, lord knows I did my fair share of dating (badly) in 2009 but I'm ending the year happy and in progress. I'll leave it at that.
My finances are not stellar but they're improved -- I'm centimeters closer to paying off the debt that will continue to plague me for years and years... I saw my best friend TWICE this year (she lives far away - this is a big deal)... I turned 30 this year and I have admit I loved it... I didn't really move up the corporate ladder this year but I stayed employed and am thankful... I feel closer to my parents these days, which is astoundingly nice... My true friends continue to be there for me and thank goodness for that...
2009? You sucked a lot but you weren't without a few highlights.
Let's just make 2010 a little more highlight heavy, kids.